It always seems like everyone else is happier and doing great in life except me...I'm not Envious..just a little sad. Its a feeling of not belonging in that group of people who seem to have it all.... There are many words to describe ME... 'Low in Self Esteem', 'Thinks Too Much About Other People'....'Likes To Compare Self With Others'...
Hey I'm Only HUMAN....though often I like to put the blame over the fact that I'm a VIRGO.....
Apparently Virgoans like to OVER THINK things....and FEEL TOO MUCH...
ANGER
My 'Anger Radar' is amazing.....When I get pissed and bottle up things it's scary.. My blood pressure increases until my throat hurts and then I start screaming and crying.... This of course is often done in the car on the way home (if you can call that a home) from work. After that either I listen to sad songs or I go to sleep. And when I wake up I go and get a shower during which I vow to not get upset so easily in future..but by then I'm already on another track...thinking about how miserable, lonely and meaningless my life is...and WHY THE HELL AM I HERE DOING WHAT I'M DOING RIGHT NOW???
SO....
The reason I'm writing all of this is that it all leads back to finding out what is my 'WHAT'!!!
What is this thing that makes me HAPPY, which is my Life Purpose...
p/s: I need to move on from where I am right now...
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